17 years ...

Ah Maa, today is the 17th year since you left us .... but it's still very fresh in my memory.

It was 17 years ago exactly on Saturday about this time you decided to leave us. It was and still is very painful for me personally because you did NOT say goodbye. Not only you did not say goodbye but you FAILED to show any sign to us that you were about to leave us.

The night before, you still enjoyed steamboat dinner with cousins and you even told MF Chi Chi that it was your birthday that night. When Tua Ee fed you Milo at 3am, you refused to drink but you did NOT tell her that you wanted to leave us forever in the next few hours !

When mum rushed over to your bed side to see you slowly losing your breath, why didn't you open your eyes?

Ah Maa ... i still remember the week before, mum and me went to visit you and bought you chicken chop. As you were enjoying your meal i sat there looking at you without saying a word. And after you finished your meal, you walked to the fridge, took out grapes, passed to me and just smile. That was the last time i saw your smile ..

So, how are you doing now Ah Maa? Do you miss me? I bet you constantly think of me yeah coz i used to play cards with you, sat next to you to listen to all your stories and also made you angry with my cheeky acts.

Anyway Ah Maa ... don't you worry about me ... I'm doing really great now. The only thing missing in my life is you as you no longer with me to share my happiness. Remember how i used to buy you gifts each time i travelled for my tournaments? And your favourite was the blue purse i got for you ...

Each time when we talked about you at home, we will just laughed. But when am alone and the thoughts of you came to mind, tears just rolling down.

Oh ya Ah Maa ... do you know you have another great grandson? It's Ah Choon's son and his name is Tristan ... aiyoo .. if you still alive i believe you'll love him as much as we do. He is sooooo cheeky like us haha.

Haiz ... sometimes i just wonder why you have to leave us so early Ah Maa .... it will be fun to have you around me. I will feed you with alot alot of chicken chops and play cards with you till morning :)

You take good care ok? I always pray to God to be gracious to you Ah Maa and i REALLY hope to meet you again ... Until then, take to heart that i miss and love you very much. Be it 17 years or many years to come, you'll live in my heart.

Your notty granddaughter,
Ah Lin ....